repress it before it kills you.

Apr 20, 2008 - 21:49 PM PST

rewind, repress, erase. i wish i was ignorant to your entire being. if you had any idea how much you hurt me... words can't express. i catered my life to you for the past 6 months; a roller coaster of ups and downs. although the ups were few and far between, the dispersed remnants of our double lives. i trusted you. enough to trust you twice. enough to let you break me, suck me back in, and do it all over again. but maybe i'm not pathetic. maybe i should be thanking you for carving the deepest hole in me. when i wake up in a month or two, my happiness will be twice that it ever was. for now i think i truly know what it means to be broken.



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sorry i'm over dramatic. in the past two days i've had a friend admit their endearment for me, lost the person i thought i loved because of it, and i've had my life threatened. twice.

in all seriousness, this fucking sucks... but i intend to wake up and breathe, and learn to repress. it'll be interesting to see how this goes.