Should I be worried?

Feb 28, 2008 - 21:10 PM PST

Well, this is my first entry. Not too sure what to say exactly. I've had blogs before, even kept up with maybe one pretty often, but this one seems a little different. Something's scarier about this one. Maybe the name of the site is the scary part. A reminder that, hey, you're almost 2-fucking-5 and you need to get your shit together! Ahhh, yes, that must be it. I'm 24, graduated college almost 2 years ago and I'm doing nothing with my life right now. That's only because I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT TO DO! Should I be worried??

I just moved back to Chicago after living in Virginia Beach for the past 11.5 years which is scary enough for me. Such a huge change! Just dropping everything I've grown to know in VA to come back to a place I barely know anymore. So much has changed here, it's freaking me out. I'm not used to driving out here either. That's a huge thing for me too, driving. Freaks me the hell out! So, I'm back here, feeling like a complete alien, lost as hell, and I don't have anything going for me (it seems). I don't have a job. I kinda had one, retail (ugh!), but it was seasonal and apparently, the managers at the store didn't want to keep a hard worker who could work any shift. They'd rather keep all the young college students who would have to change their schedules anyway when they went back to school....didn't make much sense but that's ok. I didn't think a college graduate should be working there anyway. Well, at least not me. So yeah, no job, new-ish location, no idea what I want to do with myself, my degree, my life.

What is there to do for someone with a degree in English that ISN'T teaching-related? I've been applying for administrative assistant jobs (advised by my overbearing, psychotherapist mother) but nothing is happening, besides getting a few jobs here and there (if I'm lucky) through a temp agency. I've been here over 8 months already! I'm going crazy! I don't know what to do. I'm losing hope (and my mind) very quickly.

I would love to work in the theatre realm. That would make me really happy.

Should I be worried right about now?