Sleep?

Feb 10, 2008 - 09:49 AM PST

So last night I was up til like seven in the fricken
morning because I could hardly sleep at all. One, because
I had a lot on my mind and two, because I randomly had
this horrible hacking cough and a bit of a head ache.
Yea, I also kinda called Sean at like 5:30 in the
morning...I honestly don't know why I did buuuut. He
didn't answer of course, I didn't expect him to, but I
left him a messege. I dunno, I guess I thought that for
whatever strange reason he could possibly but up and
pasing around is room like I was. Gah I have no clue
weather or not to believe him. I want to more than
anything ealse in the world, but I cant. The things I
heard about him...I mean does it make sence that two
people who know him but didn't even talk to eachother both
knew the same thing? I wish I could hate him. I also wish
that he would stop being so blind. I've heard straight
from her friends that shes using him, I even know what
shes using him for. But the sad thing is that I think hes
using her too [if what I heard was true, I dont know
anymore], I mean its sad but at the same time it makes me
laugh. I don't want him to be used but the fact that hes
being used in return is just...funny. I guess thats what
he gets huh? :P I wish I could hate him, but I can't.
The truth is, that I HATE the FACT that I love him. I
hate it more than anything ealse right now.


~:Tara: