somnium

Apr 23, 2008 - 02:47 AM PST

superstar
will you remember our stars
when you are 37 or 73?
or will the concept of
destiny be a myth of the past
to the point where
people no longer
believe in fate,
but rely on dates
through match.com
may they find peace through
their calculated matches
while they live in eHarmony.

despite the doomed future
please remember
that happiness
is not a dream but a reality.
“you may say I’m a dreamer,
but I’m not the only one”
yes I am a dreamer
a seven-letter word
tattooed on my wrist
to remind me that
my somnium is not dead.


but.
you are proving me wrong
because you are not
the answer to my lovely
soliloquy.
my thoughts stand
naked alone
without any consolation
or any constellations
to guide them.

even though you have left
I know I am right.
and this is why I write
to remind myself
that it is you
yes
you
that taught me that
I am not a dull stone
just a hidden
gem.

I cannot hate you for
blessing me with this gift
of sight.
i was blinded for so long.
you kissed my eyes
and now they are open.
but your lips were poison
and this is my curse.
my only downfall is that
I see only you.

do not worry love
I will come to my senses.
I will train my ears
to forget
the sound of your voice.
and rewire my scent
to forget the smell of
your skin.
until then I will sit alone
and wait patiently
for my lavender sun
to finally set.