sorry,im bein too seLfish,.

Aug 02, 2008 - 16:51 PM PST

Date: Saturday, August 2, 2008 3:37 PM
Subject: tough stuff!
Message:
the only thing that i ever wanted xoe bad,
and i cudnt have,.
it kills me,.
we may be caLLed "together"
but were not,.
why its this freakin hard,.
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tangina taehna!
kausap kita nehtoh Langya,.
may ipopost aq,
naiba tuloi mood q,.
dein q Lam kg bat aq bad3p pero,.
bat Lagi ka asa timing?
huh?
magsisimba aq,.
alam mu nmn,.
tas gaLet aq,.
anu ba nmn yan boi!
taaaaahhhhh!!!!!!
tang ina!
kng aq sknia,.
papakamatai nlng aq,.
anu address nia?
papadalhan q xa ng kutchiLy0,.!
san damakmak na prescription drugs,
at lubid!
xa na mamili kng anu gs2 nia!
p0tah!!!!!!!!!!!
anu?
amena ung address!
tang ina!
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i posted that this afternoon as it says in the time and date,.
in my f's bulletin,.
i noe most of you wont understand wut im sayin again,
not most,.
everyone of you wont,.probably,.
its my diaLect,
when im mad,
Like burstin mad,
i most Likely to express it in my language,.
and xoe,.
after i came home from church,
i came to my senses too,.
that why am i bein xoe impatient and unkind to wut ever his ex gurLfriend is goin thru,
i of most people defenitely noe wut its Like to be in her shoes,
the pain,
the regret,
seLf-pitty,
and i hope it wont resort to sum dumb move,
i wish she wont hurt her self,
unlike wut i did to myself when i was goin thru hell,
it just became my escape,
when i cant feel anythin,
the pain made me numb,
my insides numb,
and have to do sumthin about it,
thats why i cut myself and watch me bleed,
just xoe il be familiar wit different kind of pain again,.
not the same aLL pain that im aLready deaLin wit because of sum perve who ran away wit my heart
its crazy,
when i think of it now,
i Laugh and cant even think why have i done those creepy stuff,.
weLL,.
its the moment of L0st,
the parties,
and the party that everybody noes,
when u get there xoe high,
u wudnt even noe wut eLse to do,.
but i have over come it aLL,.
its aLL good and and im not gonna Lose myseLf ever again,.
keep it together gurL!
just Like i did,.
move on and get over things,
or if u cant move 0n and forget,
just get on wit yer Life and get on wit his memoirs,carry him wit you,and make his memories be yer guide,.
then in time,.
u cud smiLe and say,.
"thank you---because of u ,i made it thru"