Started something... finally.

Dec 28, 2007 - 15:39 PM PST

So I started to write something. The something that's been floating in my head for a long long while. The something that I think could really be something. It just came out of me. I had just watched a movie and I found myself enjoying it and getting really into it. And then when it ended I started to kind of cry. Not because the movie was sad, it wasn't. It was "Purple Violets" (2007) written and directed by Edward Burns. No one should be that good looking and be able to write. Not fair. Anyway, back from that strange tangent. The crying after movies I really enjoy thing happens to me sometimes. I know why, too. It's because I want to be a screenwriter, and I have several ideas that I think would be great. I just never put anything substantial down on paper. I write tidbits every once in a while and then I stop and never turn them into anything. I think... no I know that it's because I'm afraid nothing will come of it. Nothing will come of my dreams, nothing will come of my writing. So I don't put it out there. Because if I create nothing, then no one can devastate me by rejecting my something.

Well as you can tell from my other blog postings, I'm working through all my mental hang ups on this blog. Or attempting to. And I think that I just broke through a little bit by putting a little something down on paper. Now I just have to dedicate myself to it and not give up like I've been so accustomed to doing.

I've had my lightbulb moment and I hope my little lightbulb stays bright!

P.S. Sorry for all the times I used the word "something" in the above posting. When I said I started something... I must have really meant it.