Step out of it.

Dec 21, 2007 - 21:27 PM PST

I gotta tell you that this whole "living inside my head" thing, I think it rules my life right now. I know, step out of it and step into something new. I'm trying. The thing is that I find it kind of liberating and wonderful to admit that I'm stuck. I think that I travel through life (and I can't be the only one doing this, I swear) just mentally reigning it all in, all my crazy thoughts and actions and just presenting this little package to the outside world that I'm hoping will let me pass for normal.

Well as I'm going through my little quarterlife crisis or whatever I'm noticing that my little package I present to the world is getting more disheveled looking. I just had to put this out there because I'm having one of those days where it seems like the world is just asking too much of me and I just want to push back and say, "nope, back off people I'm on mental overload."

My friend from work is going through a tough time too, we both have health issues that make everyday life hard to get through without pain. The difference between us is that she is married and has young kids and after a hard day at work dealing with whining adults she has to go home and deal with her kids and her falling apart body. Me, I just have to go home and deal with my falling apart body and my existential crisis (which seems like a luxury in comparison to her troubles). And she's so darn mentally healthy when it comes to dealing with all of her problems. I just admire her so much and I'm trying to take a page out of her book and deal with things with the grace that she does.

That's what I find amazing about life. When you're going through something and you think it's the world's end, there's someone sitting next to you going through something even more life changing and dealing with it in such a different way than you are. And their way makes you step out of your problem for a moment, and hopefully pull back the curtain on the illusion that everyone else is perfect and you're just the messed up piece of work!