stupid timing

Apr 03, 2008 - 11:05 AM PST

So my son's father texted messaged me and was like "call me when you get a chance i need to ask you something." so i thought it was going to be something dumb like borrow some money, or why do i stay home all day and eat everything i touch... NO! nothing like that. He askes "is there any chance for us in the furture?" seriously? no, not a single chance. or what i said was "when cancer consumes my body" because he told me he wishes that would happen. don't get me wrong i love the guy, helped me create the most beautiful child i could have ever asked for, i just can't deal with his assinine friends, he language towards me, nor can i stand his family. it feels like they hate me and they wish i was "normal"

i don't know what i'm doing anymore, i put my heart out there all the time and usually it gets drop kicked into a waste basket, then lit on fire. So i think being single for over two years is a good thing, maybe i'll go another two.

well i will start going on a tangent if i don't stop now.