Surviving My Quarterlife 5

Jan 11, 2008 - 17:28 PM PST

I am at work right now. I probably should not be writing this because I might get in trouble for not actually working. However the stuff that I am working on is so boring and I finished most of it anyway.

My right knee is hurting me a lot today. I try to deny this fact, but it is true. It hurts! I guess I am running on it too much. I know that I did something bad to my right knee (I suspect weight lifting strain) to cause some some serious injury because it has been bothering me on and off for a year now. Anyway, I am not going to let this stop me from getting into shape. I don't care what I have to do.

I still have not called ONS in the last couple days, but ONS has not called me either. I hope this is not some kind of game that is going on between the two of us. At least I can take comfort in knowing that we will see eachother at leats one more time -- this is just a feeling, but I am pretty sure.

I am feeling a little depressed today. I don't know why. I think it might be partly because of my acne. It is not extremely bad, but it is just so annoying and it won't go away! Also, I did not sleep too much last night so that could be part of it. I will just try to brush it off, but it is not easy. Sometimes I feel like life is just not giving me what I want. But maybe that is because I don't really know what I want exactly.

Here are some things that I want. I want to look good. I know this is shallow, but part of me feels like the only way that I am going to attract someone that I like is by being attractive. This is common right??? I want to be in good shape. I want to support myself financially by working at a job that I enjoy. I want to love someone and be loved by someone. That is all. I am going to keep chasing after these things and never give up. If I give up than they surely will not come true. If I keep going than maybe at least some of these things will come true. Never give up! Never surrender!

#1 - I ran 4 or five miles today

#2 - I worked an eight hour day

#3 - Nothing to report about any relationships

#4 - Nothing to report about script writing

okay, bye for now