The Sleeping Monster

Apr 02, 2008 - 10:32 AM PST

Every day I see it, from the minute I wake up to the very second I fall asleep. It is inside me just resting, sleeping. I am afraid that it will awake one day and I will become a person that I have always dreaded to become.

There are too many temptations, too many moments where I try to justify it, and too many reasons that I try to find for me to just go ahead and do it. But then again there are also many that keep me away from it.

Others would tell me that this is something I shouldn't fight against, and I should just let it be. And some will say that I need to stay away from the thoughts and temptations that linger all around me.

One thing is for sure, if this monster awakes I don't want it to be by my own doing. I will not allow for that to happen. For as long as I can I will try to keep it stored away. But if it is awakened by someone other than me then I would have to assume that it is fate and will have to accept it. I also will not allow myself to push something away if I feel it is the way things should be.

So for now I can just keep going with my life knowing that theres a possibility that it could turn out the way a lot of people thought, and there will be no more sleeping monster, or even a "monster". No one can tell what's going to happen so I'll just grab some popcorn and watch with the rest of the world...