the suffocation of creativity...

May 12, 2008 - 23:41 PM PST

Captivated trances
while sleep pulls you away
delicate survival
holding closer than i deem necessary
you are unaware
all i require
in your reality i dance
upon perfection
directly under
the surface
i boil
with contempt of myself
plotting
destruction
and you are unaware
i am disaster
will i allow
the perfection you offer
oblivious the ways
contain myself, I
absence, HER
depression
clung/clinging/refusal to not cling
tightly/desperately/need
happiness
suffocates
creativity
aware
comforting
disaster
i am
and tonight you lay
unaware
sleeping dreams
threaten futures
which with waiver upon daybreak
while the sun refuses to shine
and we dwindle
the looming sky
june
becomes more than beckoned
while gloom overwhelms
we in turn
suffocate/breathe/release/panic...jle