Things that hurt...

Sep 02, 2008 - 14:56 PM PST

--When I allow someone into the private little world that is this blog and yet they never take the time to read it.
--When the excuse for not e-mailing or reading my blog is "didn't have time"...if I were important, you would make time, it's as simple as that.
--Hypocrites...especially when they don't even realize they are being that way.
--A broken heart...because they never go away.
--Missing someone. It is like a dull ache in my chest.
--When I want someone to fight for love but they aren't strong enough or man enough to do so.
--My friend's tears...even when I know it's the right thing.
--That I haven't seen you...or you.
--That you don't want to see me.
--Endings without closure.
--Being used and lied to about it.
--That you don't notice when I'm hurting and need you to hold me.
--The memories that won't go away.
--That my birthday is tomorrow and you won't call...or write, because you don't really care anymore.
--That I can write a list of things that I would love to recieve for my birthday and still not get what I want.
--That no matter how often I say it, no one understands that I recieve love through gifts but I am not looking for expensive possessions but affordable trinkets of your love.
--That I will be visiting the cemetary for the first time in two months on the morning of my birthday because I want to hear her singing to me.
--That she won't be here to sing to me.
--That he doesn't even care that he brought me into this world 28 years ago tomorrow.
--That I no longer matter to you as much (even as a friend) because you met someone new.
--That I no longer have a group of friends that would get together with me to celebrate.
--Love.
--The lack of love.
--You.
--Me.
--Loss.




--That you may or may not read this but you won't respond either way...because you can't see that I still want you around.