To continue (conclude?) my last blog...

Jan 21, 2008 - 17:39 PM PST

Well, figures I, of all people, would lose the girl who is thought of to be the girl of my dreams... ya... I thought she was... I still do.

According to her, we will get back together sometime, I sure hope so... life sucked in the first place and when she came around oh... almost four months ago now, it started to look up a bit... buuuut then this happens...

Does anyone know the feeling of being lost, almost all the time... eh... that's a stupid question... of course you do, I'm sure everyone goes through that at some point... Well, I'm sort of going through that right now. My relations with my friends are deteriorating, the family bonds are disappearing, the only person that really has any idea about what is going on for me right now... well, sadly enough, she lives five hours away...

My weekend has been rough, and despite my friends' great attempt to make me feel better, I still feel like shit over what happened... She says sorry for it as if it's her fault, I, however, don't blame her at all, I mean, seriously, there's nothing that girl has done wrong! other than fall in love with me... I actually should apologize to her(yes I know it's the emo talking, but I don't care), I don't think I'm worth dating, not one bit. Ya, I think I'm a better choice than some people, such as my douche bag cousin Adam, but it's not like Katina would ever leave me for a guy like him. That's definitely besides the point... I already feel like the cup is half empty with a crack in the bottom...

This is not working out for me... how bout I just go ahead and move to Kansas... or maybe I would get accepted to Kansas University and only be a half hour away from her... that would be my best guess... Maybe.... just maybe...