today...

Mar 02, 2008 - 22:58 PM PST

so today i was taking care of my neice and nephew along with my parentals...having them around is a joy to me.. but it all ended with them going back to my brothers new apt. in millilani... i saw how happy they were to see him and that showed me how much meaning they bring to him.... it fills me with hope that i can start a family of my own someday.. but the question is will it bring meaning to my life.. a life of pain and sorrow.. will it still fill my emptyness like it did for my brother.. who knows... first things first i gotta move out soon cuz its about time again for me to do that... lol.. i moved out once and couldnt hold a job so i had to come back home... this time tho it will be different.... my case manager is helping the search ....i have to find a job where they understand that im sick and not like everyone else... i dunno what i can do but joe(case manager) has specialist at his job that do that kinda stuff so i think it will be interesting to say the least.....i find out what i can do on tuesday when i go see my doctor.