Top of the World

Feb 14, 2008 - 15:52 PM PST

Somehow, I stopped being the cool kid in my group in my hometown.
I just moved back and I'm not staying long, THANK GOD.
I used to be the cool one. The one everyone talked to and tried to hangout with all the time. Now it's this other girl. I know her pretty well. She is destroying my social existence. And back where I used to live... all those friends are gone so I have nowhere to go.
I'm messed up over it. Especially since my best friend in the whole world finds this other girl more interesting and cool as well.
I'm typing in this elementary fashion because I know that I'm being childish. But I am jealous. Completely. And bitter. And it has destroyed my self-esteem. And this isn't the first time I've felt it. I just haven't felt it to this magnitude before.