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elle0427 | Lake Zurich, IL • United States , Age 20

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Vulnerability in art

Mar 09, 2008 - 08:52 AM PST

I honestly believe that I am intimidated and in awe of those who commit their lifes to the creative arts. I have always had this small part of me that has wanted to be a performer. I love to dance, sing, act, paint, anything that lets me try and express things that seem so clear. It probably comes from the fact that I feel as though I can never say anything that is as clear as a piece of art. Yet, I look at the arts and I also fear them, in that they are a perfect place for people to judge the core within me. Acting on a stage, singing a song, dancing a solo, performing a piece of poetry or putting up a painting for all to see. It exposes your true self in a way channeled through something else. This is what draws me to it and pushes me away. Is it so bad that I am afraid to show myself exposed for the world to judge?

To all you out there who are able to do what I cannot, let me applaud you. I am working to get to that place you already seem to have arrived at. Or maybe you haven't. As I get older, I am realizing that this is a lifelong journey. All I can say is that I still have to just get in the car and drive, if you understand that metaphor. Get in the car. Turn on it. Press the accelerator. Maybe I am afraid the car will explode. Maybe its the speed. Maybe all I want to do is just ride a bike. Well its up to you to understand or relate or not to what I write here. This is my introduction to this site and of course will hopefully be the first of many encounters.

Title: Vulnerability in art

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Added: 03-09-2008

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meabo

Jun 17, 2008 - 10:08 AM

You've just described how I feel every time I attempt to construct visual art or to perform in any way. It's all a matter of fear control. But this is, of course, much easier said than done. All you can do is start small and know that everything you are afraid to attempt will most likely wind up being the most amazing experience of your life. Good luck!

Ziggy

Mar 29, 2008 - 17:00 PM

People have always been judging you, when you get a grade in school you are being judged, your boss judges your performance at work, peers judge you by who you are and what you wear. Being judged in the arts is no different. You have to look at the arts as you would anything else in life. No matter what you do in your life people will judge it so you might as well do what you love and what you believe in. Always remember that for every person who hates what you are doing there will be one who loves it. If you get feedback from the people who hate it and not just an "I hate it because I do" it will teach you much more about yourself than the people who instantly love it. Thats what the arts are all about, learning and expressing. If you want to be creative and express yourself do it. Don't let fear stand in your way. As Whoopi Goldberg says in Sister Act 2, "If you run every time something scary happens you will be running your whole life" Good luck!

ccsqueaky

Mar 15, 2008 - 15:02 PM

First I want to thank you. For a while now I've been trying to put into words why it is that I seem to born to be around that arts and yet always from the outside looking in. By nature I'm a very creative person. I try to dabble in alot of things and feel like something is missing in me if I'm not around or apart of something creative. At the same time, I just can't be that exposed. My shelll is too soft. When all is said and done what I've ended being a creative groupe of sorts. _alanna_, I would have to agree with I only I seem to have the same issue with both people and art. Once someone sticks it out long enough and I know I can trust them that is when I open myself up. So thanks for putting into words I feeling that I've been trying to place.

_alanna_

Mar 09, 2008 - 16:17 PM

Hi there. I'm a performer, I can go to venerebility in art, because there is a detachment for me. Where I succeed there, I fail in relationships. I cannot make myself venerable to people. My only relationship is with my art, many performers I know are this way. It is meerely a different type of venerability then most are used to. I can present my innermost soul on stage, but at a party I'm the one standing in the corner trying to look at ease while examining the art on the wall. Just something to think about....