waiting.

May 15, 2008 - 20:12 PM PST

Sitting here on my bed,
the radio playing softly in the background.
It's a rap song.
You still haven't called me, like you said you would...
Ironic isn't it?
Rap is playing while I'm waiting for your call, I wonder if it means you won't.
Speaking of things you say you are going to do,
I'm still waiting for that email...you know, your answers to my questions.
You've had that email since the beginning of finals... more than two weeks ago.
I know I said "take your time," the last time we spoke but I didn't completely mean it.
Now that the wireless is working I find myself drawn to checking my email, facebook, or chatting on AIM.
Checking my email is the worst. At school I'd have about 20 emails a day, but at home I'm lucky if I get one or two a day.
My phone just vibrated...false alarm.
It was just another friend, asking a trivial question like "what movie should I watch?"
It wasn't you. None of the texts or phone calls I get tonight will be from you, will they?
Remember how I hold my hand up in the air for you to high five after a great comment of yours or to say congrats after you accomplished something, remember how you leave me hanging most of the time?
Will you leave me hanging all summer? Will you leave me hanging like you did after you got my Valentine's day card?
It took courage for me to write what I wrote and I still don't know where you stand...
That was February, it's May now... will I ever know?
Or will I just be left waiting. Waiting for a call, a high five, an email, and last but not least, an answer...


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