We're all talking to strangers online.

Jan 16, 2008 - 17:57 PM PST

I was just surfing... skimming... whatever... quarterlife. We are all talking to strangers releasing thoughts and feelings and opinions we never knew we had by any form of art. I find it weird how I can stop holding my breath and biting my tongue in an e-mail. I'm not against it talking to someone you've never met online, I do it daily. But I just don't get it. Is it because we're basically disguised, and when we're disguised we do things that we wouldn't do in our own skin? Now I get it, but I still don't. I don't think the world is what it is anymore, it changes daily like technology and everyone I'm close to in person know nothing about me. So it's like I have to get online, and be myself around people I just don't know. But I understand where they're coming from. This is just something in my system I need to get out. But someone please explain their opinion to me.

There's one more monkey on my back, LOVE. It pains me when I look at my parents together and realize they're not in love. Because to me love is a load of bull between the two existing genders. It's the parasite to humanity. Nothing and no one can change my mind about this, I've thought this since I was ten and I got a lesson on sex at my school. How can I even love someone in my family already? I don't even know these people. I spend time with them because I'm obligated, and my mother is about pretending everything is okay when it's not, when everyone knows it's not. And she still goes to a social filled with family to make it seem like we're not unsociable hermits. But back to the love thing, when do you know your in love? Does you heart beat faster than normal when you're talking to, thinking of, looking at or writing to them? I don't think love just disappears either, so maybe people should just get a life and not a love life, because eventually everyone crashes and burns. Almost everyone I know has two parents who are divorced, having major problems with each other or something of the sort. Everyone else just moved from a neighborhood full of Stepford families. Then sometimes I'm told by my friends that their families may seem perfect but their parents have issues with each other and are about to divorce. And when I think of it, they live in neighborhoods where everyone knows everyone's business. Is it just a show?

Love is taken for granted and is an overused word. Just because you're going out with someone doesn't necessarily mean you're in love with them, so no need to pull out the commitment contract and all the "I LOVE YOU"s. Just like "hate", "love" is a strong word too. Feel free to disagree.