What advice would you give to your 10 year old self.

Apr 12, 2008 - 00:16 AM PST

This was inspired by a somethingawful entry. A bunch of people were posting what they would tell their younger self. It got me thinking about things I would have done differently in my life if I would have known what would happen. I think about these butterfly effect situations and I find them extremely fascinating. Here are some things I would tell my childhood self:

Don't go to any medical school or any school that you are just not interested in.
Leave Miami as soon as possible! It will only get worse and you will meet tons of unstable people.
Be closer to your uncle, he will kill himself, and his wife and you will regret all the time you missed with him.
Your family is not that bad, but you have to leave them as soon as you can.
You will meet a girl when you first start high school, you will go out with her for over 5 years and she will screw you over eventually. Stay friends with her, if that. You will be in a situation that will be hard to get out of, she will contact you in 10 years, don't persue it.
Seriously little Kilby, get some goddamn help. You have emotional problems which will only get worse and effect your relationships and jobs. Seriously see a doctor, take him seriously.
Life is not so bad right now, I'm sorry to tell you, it will only get worse. You will meet girls who will totally break you, you will be forced to take jobs that are so below your skill level, you will have trouble in relationships because you like girls who are emotional wrecks, your stepfather will move back in, you will live in Kendall where your life will take a drastic turn for the worse, you will meet a girl which will ostracize you from friends you had before and you will leave Miami because the only way to get better is to let the city and people destroy themselves on its own.
Be more active.
Really, you aren't as horrid as you think you look, girls will eventually like you, as odd as that sounds, you have good qualities you little asshole.
High school will be your toughest years, I guarantee that.
Really dude, give all music a chance, you will be better for it. (edit: i have no idea what I was listening to at 10 years old)
Never date a girl in another county.
High school will be tough, you will meet tons of people and most of them will hurt you or affect you in some way. Be yourself and remember most people are not worth it and you will be better for knowing that. If they don't like you, remember it's not your problem
Taking drama in senior year will be one of the best decisions you would have made, good job there. You will meet a redheaded girl who will change your life for the better and give you the opportunity to give you a new start, a new lease on everything. She will seem a bit shy, you will still be a bit shy too. Be really awesomely cool to her. She is one of the good ones, little guy. Try to be good friends with her, she will consider you one of her best friends some day and this will be one of the good things about getting older.
Don't be a wuss, if you like someone, say it. The worst thing that can happen is they don't feel the same way and who knows, they might actually feel the same way, just be stronger and take a goddamn chance, fag.
You are totally right, you don't like sports. Just because you are a guy does not mean you have to do as others do. Be yourself and you will feel better about yourself.
Ignore your parents. They think they know what is best but it's your life, you will realize this later on that on many things they are totally clueless.
You will have violent thoughts during one of your jobs, yeah....don't share it with people, it will only get you sent to the mental hospital and make you hate people even more.
Don't be so desperate to be in a relationship, you will be in one for years and wish you had more free time and were never in it.
Don't be into girls who are "bi", they will only confuse you and ditch you.
Believe it or not, you will become somewhat wellknown around people, as much as you are embarrased by your last name, it will be the name most everyone will know you by.
Talk to girls instead of waiting for them to talk to you.
Don't ever "grow up". Remember your childhood and where you are now.
Don't be afraid of being a geek. It's endearing to those people who matter, and makes you a smarter person. Someday girls will see through other guys bs.
Stand up for yourself more and maybe you won't get beat up as often...DUH!!!
Stay away from alcohol, it's not cool to be barely incoherent and trying to talk to some girl, not cool at all, just drink in moderation.
Read more, all that crap they give you in school it not worth it, develop your own interests.
Your awkwardness will turn into a sort of confidence that some girls will like (the ones with a mind), you will have more to offer and talk about than that thug/jock/loser over there who seems to have it all.
Your dad is not a jackass, he just has problems maintaining a friendship with you, you're gonna have to call him up every so often.
You will feel like killing yourself nearly every day. Don't do it, it isn't worth it and it's kind of fun to stick around and hear about weird stuff that goes down and hearing some guy who was a dick to you going through worse crap than you will ever go through, fun!
Ultimately what I want to tell you is that, you are going to be soo fucked, you will meet tons of fucked up people, and life is going to generally suck. YOu will work in really crappy, lowpaying jobs, you will have debt, you will lose some good friends, people will change and you will wonder why, all that education won't mean crap, Move out as soon as you can. You will not get any girls in high school, be prepared for a lot of rejection. Half the school thinks you are gay for the people you hang with, others will think you're just some sort of weirdo. Don't follow trends. They really don't matter. Spend more time with yourself, develop your mind. Learn to not depend on others so much. you will not really know love, especially not now. As I am writing to you now, I still don't understand it completely. I do love some people and it has nothing to do with being in a relationship with them, remember that. Have patience, eventually things will end up working out and all this hurt, rejection, loss, embarrassment, misanthropy will all pay off and will help you deal with pretty much anything. You will use this knowledge to help others, you will be seen as knowledgeable so all that nerdiness will pay off. Don't forget that I love you, there is always redemption, it's never to late to correct things. I really love you and I just want what's best for you. *sigh* you probably wouldn't listen to me anyways. I just wanted to tell you some things, you will go through all this and survive and be a pretty awesome person, don't put yourself down, people like you, dammit! Talk to you soon. I love you.