What she wants

May 12, 2008 - 21:11 PM PST

What she wants
May 12, 2008

She walked out of her house hoping for this night to be the first memory of theirs together. Nervous and excited she looked out the window at passing cars wondering if she made the right descion to let him back into her life. A familar song played as she remember the broken hearted past the two of them had together and she smiles for the possiblity of them. As they sit at dinner she sees his strange habits of eating one section of his food at a time haven't changed and it comforts her until she begins to wonder if maybe, nothing has changed! Sure things have happened and time has passed but does he yearn for her a she has always for him. Has he yet again blindsided her with his charm and love for the same things as her? She shakes the feeling and pushes aside for now. As the beer touches her lips one sip at a time the guard slowly begins to fall to the ground. Without motives, or empty chores on their hands they are able to gain insight on who each other are. Flirtatioius nature comes into the light as the sunsets in the distant. Filled in a room full of stangers, somehow they are able to concentrate on each other. As, the night moves on she is able to see him, and tides are begining to change. Internally she is wondering why there isn't that spark that intially began their moments. Has he changed, or has she finally been able to see who he is without the other factors added into the equation? As she exits the car she turns and says goodnight, and he does the same. As she walks to her door a sudden shock of freedom waves over her, with every step away from him she realizes that she no longer has to wait for him. She is finally able to move on if she wants, or call if the next day. Either way, as the door closes she smiles because now it is whatever she wants.