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When nothing turns into something it becomes everything. (Part 1)

Aug 04, 2008 - 12:08 PM PST

I don’t believe there is a key to happiness. A single universal solution…for everyone. I don’t think there is. Its not possible. People have looked into these types of things for…ever, and no one has come up with one logical solution. I wish they would. The snap of a finger and everything would just…be…great. In a perfect world…

But honestly…I think that its ridiculous the lengths people go for happiness. Which means….I‘m ridiculous? I’ve learned that the best way I can achieve happiness is just to fake it. If you put a big smile on your face…it’ll…cure everything. I do this because I can’t do the whole…skipping, pink, and rainbows thing. You know those people who are just…constantly happy. And you seriously feel like…slapping them. But only because you secretly envy people like that.

Maybe one day…it will turn out that I wasn’t ever really faking it. And I was happy all a long. Is that possible? To go around faking a typical happy person, but then one day…I’ll just…be able to let go, and will no longer need to fake it. As of right now I’m portraying a fake person. That’s just…great. You know something, I despise people like me. Those people who cover up who they really are. Maybe…there aren’t really any happy people in the world, and we’re all fake. We’re all jealous of each other’s…fakeness…but we all ready have what we all want. We just don’t see it. We don’t see the big picture.

Let’s say if life is a puzzle. The big picture is always…changing. The puzzle gets bigger and bigger. So does life ever have a big picture? If we were to say that every single person was a piece to this puzzle then we’d be losing pieces, but at the same time, finding more. I feel as if I’m one of those pieces that you just can’t find a place for. No matter how hard you try to…cram it in somewhere. It never seems to fit just right. But you leave it alone and hope that it finds some place, somewhere.

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Added: 08-04-2008

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axllow

Oct 04, 2008 - 09:13 AM

I miss your writings! I am amazed at how you can see things that people normally don't. As for the happiness, I don't think you're faking it. I just think it didn't last enough for you to realize that you are happy.

7even7even...

Aug 10, 2008 - 16:04 PM

Sometimes healing comes from the outside in. You might put that big smile on your face for show, but after a while it starts to sink in.

Its a lot like acting. I"m not sure if you ever did any acting but; when you become another person, you forget yourself. We were only built to be one person. We can't contain two opposing emotions at once. Maybe we forget we are sad and pretend we are happy. Is that optimism? To some degree, i think so. Who cares if you were preteneding at first. If you feel happy, then your happy. Sure those problems are still there, they just aren't getting to you.

Yes life is an everychanging and everexpanding puzzle. In accordance with your metaphore; There are just too many pieces and not enough space on the table! The truth is there is no greater picture. We all have our own pictures etched on our pieces and we all mold together to create the chaotically beautiful rainy day activity that is "the puzzle"...or life if you prefer.

If you do try and look at the greater picture you might think you see something, the next second you might not. (not unlike those ink blot tests shrinks use) you might not think you fit in anywhere because well, your smart enough to see the puzzle. Corner piece, edge piece, we are all just pieces. If our sides fit then its a coincidence. If they don't then too bad. All random chance.

In the end we all try and make our own greater picture with the pieces at hand, connecting (forming relationships)with the other pieces around us. But no matter what, everyone's greater picture is always different in the end.