yet another blog

Nov 16, 2007 - 10:50 AM PST

i have too many blogs, and too many selves, probably. Each one exists for different purposes and each one is written in in a different way. Some of them aren't even used, but i still have them. Livejournal, our love affair started so long ago. i wish i could go back into that first one i created there to read what i wrote. But it is no longer full of the musings of a girl stuck in a small town, because some insane guy from the internet decided to get crazy and delete it. You'd think i'd learn my lesson but no, i only made another, and was the fate much different for LJ#2? Sadly, no. Apparently said internet guy was not completely over his crazy and that one, too, was corrupted. Third time is the charm, right? Well, so far it has worked out, and i protect myself now, but not really using it to write in as much as to use it to keep track of the people on my dwindling friends-list.

Somewhere between my first and third blog there i thought i might be able to hide in a different sphere of blog-land and so was my introduction to...Deadjournal. This blog was interesting, and if i had to choose, maybe my favourite. Only a few people knew about it and they read it and commented and no one tried to delete it, a new experience for me. i've just recently crept back into that website to see if it's still there, and it is. i used to write a lot more 'poetry' than i do now. Though even back then i would deny that that was what i was doing. i think one of the reasons my infatuation with that blog decreased is that i lost faith, or could no longer trick myself, in believing that i was writing anything of subtance.

Then there was Vox and a few others, and now there is this one. i sprinkle myself between them all and nothing will be different about this one. My blogging habits have to reflect something about me, and i'm fairly sure that i don't like what they say.