screaming

Mar 13, 2008

In minutes I am about to scream. Oh my I am losing my mind. I feel like peter pan from hook when he can't fly because no happy memories. I mean why do we depend so much on happy feelings knowing that they aren't truly going to get us far. I need a break, a trip somewhere and hoping that saturday I might get it. But where to go, where is the best place to disappear. Me and my car, together we can do anything. Maybe go down to san diego, huntington beach, redondo beach, anywhere, maybe even to bakerfield for some yummy gyros. But where ever I do go, I don't think this feeling can be embreached. Someone, what do you do? How do you get this ache out of your heart. I ruined my own life and pain seems like the only way out. Breath deeply is all I hear, but is breathing actually going to help. Why not breath underwater in the depth of the ocean where your screams are bubbles lurking out help in the middle of nowhere. At least the ocean you will be cool and no longer the heat of agnst will kill you. Well this probably doesn't make sense to most, but read carefully and you'll understand the tree emotions. Like Pochontas, "it would have been better if we never met, then you wouldn't die. and John smith says, I would rather die than not knowing you my entire life." Just makes you want to cry. Some wise words from some wise charcters.